I'm currently vexed about my career choice... Before I went to Myanmar, right after I graduated from university, I had so much faith, energy and conviction of what my path was supposed to be - media industry, become a reporter, and life will take a path on its own. 

But now, my heart is telling me that I need to join the public sector. People ask me why? I can't even put it into words. It's something inside me that I feel a calling for. 

Yet, people around me tell me no. It doesn't even fit your personality. Are you sure you want this? You're still young, do something else. Anyway, you're sooooo suited to become a reporter. You were born for this! 

Yeah, I thought so too but I'm starting to think otherwise. I mean reporting and journalism will always be my first love but I'm starting to feel for something else. There is a song in my heart that is singing, chiming so loudly, it's hard to ignore. 

And I know that if I don't listen to it, I'm gonna regret this. 

I've tried to tell everyone that this is what I want to do and that I hope they respect my decision. They cringe. I can see they're about to open their mouths to tell me otherwise. Then they stop. 

It's hard for someone like me to explain to others what I want to do because sometimes it ain't very rational. I can't even explain it. 

And... I myself am questioning my decision. Is this really what I want? Are they right? Maybe they are. Maybe this is going to turn out wrong. 

I am scared. But I'm willing to give it a try. I have already tasted failure - I got my first rejection from a potential employer. Yet... Yet.. I still want to give this a shot. 

With that, I have to motivate myself to work for it because what's stopping me right now is listening to what everyone's telling me. That I can't. That I shouldn't. 

It's hard to get by just upon a smile, it's a wild world. And that's what makes it so bloody wonderful. 

So, just let me try this. Let me listen to that song in my heart.